Life After Baby 2

So now I am in "post-pregnancy" status since I gave birth to my second little cutie 2 months ago.  Like all moms I am sure, I am so thankful and blessed that the pregnancy went well and that I have a healthy bouncy baby to enjoy (again!).  Then why am I so down and frustrated at this moment in time?  Well, with my first I gained 56 pounds and told myself that it was just water weight.  Of course, most of it wasn't and so I spent a good 4 months working my ass off to get back down to my pre-baby weight.  It worked, I cardio'd my butt off and went on a nearly impossible low-calorie restricted diet (about 400 calories per day) and I drove myself (and my husband) crazy!

After I lost all the weight, I was so happy.  But after a few months of going back to my regular diet and routine, I gained about 15 pounds back.  I told myself "Hey, I know I want a second baby, so I'm just not even going to try to get into shape."  Now, I really have no excuse do I? 

Well, now I realize that what I really need is a lifestyle change.  I admit I love love love to eat, and my weakness is dessert.  But what I know now is that if I restrict everything I will always be one cookie away from feeling like a disappointment and a failure.  So I'm still going to work my butt off, but I know it will be with a different state of mind.  I'll let you know if I succeed or have fallen apart....